Paranoia..

       She was awaken up by a sounds, merely a sound whispered to her, " Another more..". She thought that she was dreaming, but it was more she should worry about. She felt pain on her wrist, " I got twisted wrist.." she cried a bit over it ,"this is could not just happen to me !".

       Nah, this is not about the twisted wrist at all. Paranoid or paranoia , people always make a such a beautiful name for disastrous things ; Catharina , Zephyr tornados are ones of thousand the examples. This paranoia haunted her all the times. Even if when she tried to run from it by sleeping, the sounds of MICTIAN , who was worshiped by the Aztecs as the god of death would come closer and more intense. She gasped for breath while her body was covered with sweat. She closed her face with her palm, she even could not shout for a shriek nor a help. The only thing her head could do was kept remembering the old voices..

thou will die. . . . . . thou will die. . . . . .

    thou will die. . . thou will die. . . and thou will see me. . . 

         . . . and we will dance gracefully. . . lief

Integrity..

      I tried to dig my head to get some topics to post since days ago, but failed. I had some but then disappeared as the time was blown away from this round head ; I forgot them. But actually they exist, yet there is nothing can be seen.  If only I had a shed, I would like to have a brainstorming there while drawing my feet under, wondering why the old Chinese students had to study all about Confucius sayings, memorizing, interpreting, reciting his aphorisms to pass the Imperial Examination. Besides, I was using some theories and aphorisms of Aristotle instead of looking up for Confucius's. At the same time I always be amazed by philosophers, who seemed "only' teachers, poets, or if more , could be possibly a political figure. I'm amazed because they could make so many aphorisms with lack of social interaction since they are surely deep analyzer. 

                             Confusius

     Then I realized that by being a deep thinker/analyzer, once he interacts with other, or heeds a problem , he would think or analyze deeply about it, to extract the basic knowledge, or at least showing the problem from two sides therefore we could solve it. Confucius is right, as he said " To merely know is nothing compared to being interested to know, being interested to know is nothing compared to deriving joy from learning it". 

    Yup, I get the joy now ; "One is worthy of being or becoming a teacher if one is able to derive new understanding while revising what he has learned.". - To teach people to live with integrity.